Insanity - Day 3 --- This man is crazy....

OMG! My body hurts. My calves and quads are pissed at me. Today was Cardio Power and Resistance... He ain't playing with this workout!! Shaun T is a fool, but I guess I am too for doing it... lol!

Luckily tomorrow is Cardio Recovery. Supposedly he gives us one day per week of an "easier" workout... Whateva! My idea of an easy workout is sitting on my behind... But I guess, that's why I'm fat now...

My only day off is Sunday. I feel good! I'm sore and tired, but still feel very motivated. I realized that oftentimes I quit when shit gets hard... Well not this time....

♥ Shaundra

Insanity - Day 2 - Plyometric Cardio Circuit

Let me start off by saying that this workout routine is really crazy. OMG! I'm so sore and tired already, but I'm still super duper excited about it all at the same time. Today's workout was Plyometric Cardio Circuit... Madness! That's what it should be called.

I'm doing things that I never though were possible with my big ass! It's crazy. I feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser, sans Bob or Jillian yelling in my ear... which is okay with me cuz.... I don't like all that screaming and hollering shit. It don't take all that....

You have to "DIG DEEP" and push yourself. Can't nobody else push you but YOU!

Well, I'm tired.. Tomorrow is Cardio Power and Resistance.... I've already watched the DVD... It's even more craziness.  

♥ Shaundra

Insanity Workout - Day 1 - Fit Test

Okay, I started the Insanity workout and did the Fit Test today. It was crazy but easier than I anticipated. I must be stronger than I think. I'm excited to be on this journey. My goal is to be under 200lbs by summer. If I keep up what I'm doing, I know I'll get there in no time!

FIT TEST RESULTS

*SWITCH KICKS - 30 REPS (2 KICKS = 1 REP) (Nothing hard here)
*POWER JACKS - 22 REPS (My ass and thighs are pissed at me)
*POWER KNEES - 56 REPS (Dude, you stole Billy Blanks' move - he should come kick your ass!)
*POWER JUMPS - 6 REPS (Just EVIL)
*GLOBE JUMPS - 4 REPS (4 JUMPS = 1 REP) (Just plain wrong, man!)
*SUICIDE JUMPS - 5 REPS (Damn homie)
*PUSH-UP JACKS - 4 REPS (OF THE DEVIL -- who thinks this shit up)
*LOW PLANK OBLIQUE - 20 REPS - (Easier than I anticipated)

I am shocked at my starting point. I know that 15 days from now when I have to do this test again, I'll be much better. It's exciting seeing your body change right before you eyes. I'm still getting use to being about 50lbs less. My mind has not caught up with my body. Sometimes, I see the change and other times, I still look and feel so fat. Well, I guess to most, I'm still fat... But fuck them! They ain't me. They don't know my struggles to get to this point. I've got 67 more pounds to go. I'm excited!

♥ Shaundra

Insanity Workout - Let's get crazy.

Okay, so tomorrow I begin the Insanity workout plan by Shaun T. His ass may seem a bit soft in the britches, but the workouts he's put together ain't no joke! Ain't no "Tilt, tuck and tigh-en" here folks. Just some straight up Biggest Loser, get yo fat ass up and move craziness!

For the next 60 days, I'll go through this evil routine. Tomorrow I start with the FIT TEST. It looks crazy as hell from jump and I'm extremely excited. I think I'm really going to enjoy this workout.

I'm so excited and focused. My goal is to be under 200lbs by the beginning of summer. That's 15lbs by June 21, 2010. I don't have that far to go but it always seems to slip away from me. The closer I get, the harder it is to get under 200. I haven't seen 1-- anything on the scale since Jr. High School. I'm so excited I could just shit my pants... LOL! Just kidding...

Okay, but seriously... During this program, I will only weigh myself once per week on Friday's and since this program is seriously intense, I'm going to keep a tight monthly record of my inches. Muscle weighs more than fat so as I gain muscle and lose fat the scale may tell stories I don't wanna hear.

I'm just getting my mind mentally prepared for this next journey I'm about to take.

It's about to get crazy over here!!

♥ Shaundra

Day 10 - Detox Over -- Now it's time to build the "Foundation"

 

Down 7.8lbs during the 9 day detox!!!

Wow! I did it. 9 days of pure torture... LOL! Okay seriously.. This was not easy but I come out of this a stronger person. I learned a lot about myself during the 9 days. I learned I don't need to eat as much food as I thought I did. I need to incorporate more fruit and veggies into my daily lifestyle.

And...

I can finish something that I start. I can't tell you how many times I attempted to do the detox, only to quit on day 1 or 2...

It was easier to quit than to keep going. I detoxed not only my body, but my mind and spirit as well. I think differently about food than I did 9 days ago. It's crazy. One day it just clicked. I realized that my life didn't have to revolve around food and dieting. I ate to live and not lived to eat. When your options are limited you realized the true purpose of eating. It's not to satifiy your tastes but to nurish your body. That's it.

I ate only to fuel my body because after a while everything started to taste the same. And when you're bored with what you're eating, you stop immediately when  you're full.

Now that the options have opened up, I have to keep that same mindset. Oftentimes, in the past, I would eat past that full feeling only because the food tasted so good. I have to keep in touch with my body and stop eating when I'm full.

It takes a lot less food to fill me up now, so I'm hopeful that these next 3 weeks of  "foundation" will be a breeze.

♥ Shaundra

Day 9 --- My last day of Detox

Down 5.8lbs in 8 days!

Well, today is it! My last day of detox. I'm so freakin proud of myself for making it this far. I can't believe I actually finished something I started. So many times before I would give up when it got tough. Not this time baby. I kept on fighting.

I feel like shit today. Not because of the detox but because of TOM's bitch ass. Ugh... Anywayz....

I can't believe I've lost almost 6lbs at this time of the month. It's such a great feeling. And I didn't exercise either. My goal with the detox was to get my eating under control. Once I can eat more protein, I add in some exercise. I don't wanna get too deep too fast! I really feel like I understand how to view food now. So it's time to start exercising...

Okay, for anybody that reads my blogs, you get the first scoop. I'm going to do a under 200lbs contest. When I officially reach under 200lbs, I'm going to do a contest on my youtube channel. I'm giving away the 60-day Insanity Workout DVDs. Yep. Shhhhhhh! That's between us right now!

♥ Shaundra

Day 8 - It's almost over....

Down 5.4lbs in 7 days!

Okay, I ordered the Insanity workout DVDs off ebay. It's already shipped... But it's ebay, so I'll wait and see if I get some bootleg shit.. I don't wanna have to clown on anybody, but I will. 

TOM finally showed up today.... 4 days late... TOM can be such a ho! I haven't started exercising yet, for the simple fact that I didn't think I could handle both this evil detox and Jillian's workout at the same time. I think that would have been too much at once for me.

So I'll begin my workout regimen on Wednesday, when I can eats me some protein and I'll have more food options at my disposal.

I'm excited that I've come this far. I didn't think I would make it. Friday, I really wanted to give up, but I stuck with it and I'm glad that I did.


♥ Shaundra

Day 7 - It's getting better. Happy Easter

Down 4.2lbs in 6 days!

Yesterday was 1000 times better than the 2 previous days. The cravings and constant hunger were gone. It's like I've made a breakthrough in my recovery. It came out of nowhere. I was actually happy yesterday. I played in my makeup and did a little online shopping. It was fabulous. I'm excited beyond belief.

I was reading my Facebook feed the other day and saw someone mention their breakfast (oatmeal and strawberries) then they added a little blurb at the end... See, eating healthy doesn't have to be hard. Okay, I was deep in my withdrawals when I read that and got super duper pissed off. I hate that patronizing tone some people have when it comes to food, weight and exercise. 

If I were to bust out some Macroeconomic and Microeconomics models and say. "oh, come on guys... That's easy!"

You would look at me like boo boo the damn fool. Well, it's easy for me, because I have a degree in Econ and studied it thoroughly! So for me, yes, it's easy. For someone that hasn't studied it... Not so much!

The same is true for healthy living. If you've grown up and lived a life of unhealthy living, then eating healthy and exercising is NOT that fucking easy.

Just like I've studied Economics and it's easy to me, I need to STUDY healthy living and break a lifetime of bad habits before it becomes easy! Period. Point blank. End of story! I don't know why people think that healthy living would be any different.

If you've only learned bad habits, then naturally you'll need to break those and LEARN new healthier habits! And you can't snap your damn fingers and make it so. It is a LEARNING process. So go sit somewhere and be still with that bullshit!!!

Okay, let me calm down, I was in a very peaceful mindset, but I just had to go there. I'm just being real.

Well, TOM has pulled out another dirty trick from his bag. His flight has been delayed and he's decided to take a much later flight than normal. I still know he's coming but not on schedule... I hate it when he does that.. He's been doing that alot more since I've been losing weight. I used to set the clock to his arrival and be pretty accurate, but now, he's acting like a little bitch and coming late one month and early the next... Bastard!

Anyways, I'm looking forward to my last 3 days on this plan. Weird to say, but it's the truth. I didn't think I'd make it this far and now that I have... I'm taking it all the way to the bank...

Happy Easter!
♥ Shaundra

Day 6 - It's getting crazy ova herre!

Down 3.8lbs in 5 days

Alright. I'll admit it... I am a Food Addict... because I am going through some serious withdrawals over here. I was mad crazy yesterday... I was crying uncontrollably and snapped my boyfriend's head off and handed it back to him... Ugh.. He was saying the wrong fucking thing at the wrong fucking time.... Sometimes, I feel like he doesn't understand what I 'm going through. It's easier for him. He hasn't been fat his entire life.. He hasn't used food as a comfort when he's sad, angry, depressed, etc... He probably doesn't have memories of coming home from school after being picked on all day and drowning his pains in food.

To him I'm just whining and complaining and should shut up and just do it... It's easier for him. He can just decide to eat right and go to the gym and he does. I envy that mindset... I just don't have that. I have to constantly push myself to do the right thing, because the wrong thing is all I've known and done... I've been fat for as long as I can remember. For me, it's not something that I can snap my fingers and wish it so! I have to go through this hard process so I can come out a better person... I'm learning and growing and don't need to be patronized about my decisions and actions. (Sorry sweetie, but I'm just not in the mood for that shit!)

But please know this Kevin, (since I know you read my blog) I envy your strength and gain my own strength from watching you. And even when I snap at you for saying some dumb shit I don't wanna hear, I still love you and appreciate everything you've helped my through. I may not wanna hear it, but need to hear it.. I hope you understand....

Yesterday, I was a monster and it really showed me what my problem is. I am addicted to food. I feel like someone that hasn't had her fix. I just wanna eat and not no fruit and veggies... Fuck that y'all. I'm tired of that shit.

Everyday is struggle but it's putting me one more day closer to my goals.  I'm thinking about getting the Insanity workout. It looks killer. I might do Jillian in the morning and get a little Insane in the evening.. I don't know. We shall see!

4 more days to go!

♥ Shaundra

Day 5 - Cravings are still here.

Down 3.2lbs in 4 days!

Okay, just when I thought it couldn't get any worse.... OMG! The cravings yesterday were mad crazy... I almost flew into uncontrollable binge. I wanted to eat and eat and eat. It was crazy. My stomach felt like a bottomless pit. I couldn't get full.

Luckily an order of wigs arrived and I was able to take my mind off of it for a moment...

Side note: I really didn't like the wigs too much. I think I'll go shorter next time. Honestly, I feel like a fool in long wigs... Besides, I think my natural nappy hair is a better look for me.... I can't seem to like myself in wigs these days...

Okay, back on topic... I reread parts of the Fat Smash book to see what the next step is after these horrid 9 day detox is over... I gotta tell ya... Doing this detox is hard but when I looked at the next phase... I was like. DAMN! That's a lot of food!

Having so little options for food, really puts food into perspective. Once this detox is over... the next phase will seem like I'm having some damn MickeyDs... The options appear to be endless... Hell, I'm down right excited to have some damn chicken or fish... Seems like heaven to me right now!

So I get it Dr. Ian... you ain't slick... If someone can suffer through the pains of the detox.. the rest of your diet seems like having cake for breakfast, lunch and dinner...

4 days down... 5 more long ass days to go... I know... Bad attitude to have... but hey... I'm just being real...

♥ Shaundra

Day 4 --- The Cravings were outta control yesterday!

Down 2.6lbs in 3 days

Okay, seriously... yesterday was tough... I was craving EVERYTHING. But here's the crazy thing. I wasn't even that hungry... My mind was sending my mouth crazy signals. I just wanted to taste food.

TOM is coming soon so I have to be careful when the surges of cravings attack. Generally, it is the only time I have uncontrollable cravings for food.

Here's how bad it was y'all... I went to buy a lotto ticket at my lucky gas station... Well, you know there's so much bad shit up in a convenience store ... I was tempted to buy a bag of chips and a candy bar... Eat it before i got home and throw the packages away at my apartment dumpster... that way my boyfriend, who oh so supportive would never know...

Oh yes, that thought crossed my mind... Sad... So so sad! But I DID NOT do it... Nope! Because another thought crossed my mind that had a stronger feeling down in my spirit.

I thought... If I do this, how would I feel about myself?  I can't even put into words the swell of emotion I was feeling at that moment. It was way stronger than the urge to eat some whack ass chips and  a candy bar... So I left with my lotto tickets, got in my car, drove home and ate an orange... (of which I couldn't even finish because I got so full so fast.)

I was proud of myself yesterday. I won a battle that I've lost so many times before... But the war is not over and there are several more battles on the road ahead... But today, I'm packed with confidence that I can rise above and actually win!

Now that's a good feeling...

♥ Shaundra